The cousin of a missing woman has revealed he’s calling off his search for her after it left him with constant nightmares, paranoia and panic attacks.
Jessica Boyce, 27, disappeared on March 19 and the ute she was driving was later found by hikers, unlocked with the windows down along with her phone and wallet near Lake Chalice on New Zealand‘s South Island.
Her cousin Aaron Goodwin was extremely close with Ms Boyce as they grew up and has been at the forefront of her search since the beginning, but her disappearance has taken a huge toll on him.
Aaron Goodwin, the cousin of a missing woman Jessica Boyce (pictured) said the stress of the search has left him with constant nightmares, paranoia and panic attacks
‘I can’t hear any more … it’s too disgusting, I can’t handle any more of it. I can’t talk about it anymore, it’s ruining my life,’ Mr Goodwin told Stuff.
‘The tips that have been coming through are grisly and extremely graphic. It’s hard to tell if people are spreading rumours or genuinely trying to help sometimes,’ he said.
Mr Goodwin joined police in a flyover search but no clues have been found apart from the ute, despite another search in early June.
‘I’ve become hyper aware and paranoid about where other female members of my family are all the time now, because I now know first hand that these things really can happen to anyone,’ he said.
Jessica Boyce disappeared on March 19 in her mother’s ute that was later found by hikers, unlocked with the front windows down along with her phone and wallet
Mr Goodwin has established a Give a Little page in the hope of raising enough money to offer a $50,000 reward for information.
‘Just letting everyone know that I’m going off the radar for a bit. This whole crazy thing with Jess is eating me up and I need to focus on getting well again,’ he announced in a Facebook post on Monday.
‘Messages to the Help Find Jess website will still be looked at, just by someone else now. My head and my heart need some time away from reality for a bit,’ he said.
Several members of Ms Boyce’s family have now reached out for counselling with Mr Goodwin currently on a hospital waiting list for treatment.
Aaron Goodwin joined police in a fly over search for Jessica (pictured) with police but no clues have been found apart from the ute she was driving